[ 1 ] For the most wild,
yet most homely narrative which I am about to pen, I neither expect
nor solicit belief. Mad indeed would I be to expect it, in a case where
my very senses reject their own evidence. Yet, mad am I not-and very
surely do I not dream. But tomorrow I die, and today I would unburthen
my soul. My immediate purpose is to place before the world, plainly,
succinctly, and without comment, a series of mere household events. In
their consequences, these events have terrified-have tortured-have
destroyed me. Yet I will not attempt to expound them. To me, they have
presented little but Horror-to many they will seem less terrible
than baroques. Hereafter, perhaps, some intellect may be found which
will reduce my phantasm to the common-place-some intellect more calm,
more logical, and far less excitable than my own, which will perceive,
in the circumstances I detail with awe, nothing more than an ordinary
succession of very natural causes and effects.
[ 2 ] From my infancy I was
noted for the docility and humanity of my disposition. My tenderness of
heart was even so conspicuous as to make me the jest of my companions.
I was especially fond of animals, and was indulged by my parents with
a great variety of pets. With these I spent most of my time, and never
was so happy as when feeding and caressing them. This peculiar of
character grew with my growth, and in my manhood, I derived from it
one of my principal sources of pleasure. To those who have cherished
an affection for a faithful and sagacious dog, I need hardly be at the
trouble of explaining the nature or the intensity of the gratification
thus derivable. There is something in the unselfish and self-sacrificing
love of a brute, which goes directly to the heart of him who has had
frequent occasion to test the paltry friendship and gossamer fidelity
of mere Man.
[ 3 ] I married early,
and was happy to find in my wife a disposition not uncongenial with my
own. Observing my partiality for domestic pets, she lost no opportunity
of procuring those of the most agreeable kind. We had birds, gold fish,
a fine dog, rabbits, a small monkey, and a cat.
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