THE CLOCK struck half past two.
In the little office at the back of Mr McKechnie's bookshop,
Gordon-Gordon Comstock, last member of the Comstock family, aged
twenty-nine and rather moth-eaten already-lounged across the table,
pushing a four-penny packet of Player's Weights open and shut with
his thumb.
The ding-dong of another, remoter clock-from the
Prince of Wales, the other side of the street-rippled the stagnant
air. Gordon made an effort, sat upright, and stowed his packet of
cigarettes away in his inside pocket. He was perishing for a smoke.
However, there were only four cigarettes left. Today was Wednesday
and he had no money coming to him till Friday. It would be too
bloody to be without tobacco tonight as well as all tomorrow.
Bored in advance by tomorrow's tobaccoless hours,
he got up and moved towards the door-a small frail figure, with
delicate bones and fretful movements. His coat was out at elbow in
the right sleeve and its middle button was missing; his ready-made
flannel trousers were stained and shapeless. Even from above you
could see that his shoes needed resoling.
The money clinked in his trouser pocket as he got
up. He knew the precise sum that was there. Fivepence
halfpenny-twopence halfpenny and a Joey. He paused, took out the
miserable little threepenny-bit, and looked at it. Beastly, useless
thing! And bloody fool to have taken it! It had happened yesterday,
when he was buying cigarettes. 'Don't mind a threepenny-bit, do
you, sir?' the little bitch of a shop-girl had chirped. And of
course he had let her give it him. 'Oh no, not at all!' he had
said-fool, bloody fool!
His heart sickened to think that he had only
fivepence halfpenny in the world, threepence of which couldn't even
be spent. Because how can you buy anything with a threepenny-bit?
It isn't a coin, it's the answer to a riddle. You look such a fool
when you take it out of your pocket, unless it's in among a whole
handful of other coins. 'How much?' you say. 'Threepence,' the
shop-girl says. And then you feel all round your pocket and fish
out that absurd little thing, all by itself, sticking on the end of
your finger like a tiddley-wink. The shop-girl sniffs. She spots
immediately that it's your last threepence in the world. You see
her glance quickly at it-she's wondering whether there's a piece of
Christmas pudding still sticking to it. And you stalk out with your
nose in the air, and can't ever go to that shop again. No! We won't
spend our Joey. Twopence halfpenny left-twopence halfpenny to last
till Friday.
This was the lonely after-dinner hour, when few or
no customers were to be expected. He was alone with seven thousand
books. The small dark room, smelling of dust and decayed paper,
that gave on the office, was filled to the brim with books, mostly
aged and unsaleable. On the top shelves near the ceiling the quarto
volumes of extinct encyclopedias slumbered on their sides in piles
like the tiered coffins in common graves. Gordon pushed aside the
blue, dust-sodden curtains that served as a doorway to the next
room. This, better lighted than the other, contained the lending
library. It was one of those 'twopenny no-deposit' libraries
beloved of book-pinchers. No books in it except novels, of course.
And
what novels! But that too was a matter of course.
Eight hundred strong, the novels lined the room on
three sides ceiling-high, row upon row of gaudy oblong backs, as
though the walls had been built of many-coloured bricks laid
upright. They were arranged alphabetically. Arlen, Burroughs,
Deeping, Dell, Frankau, Galsworthy, Gibbs, Priestley, Sapper,
Walpole. Gordon eyed them with inert hatred. At this moment he
hated all books, and novels most of all. Horrible to think of all
that soggy, half-baked trash massed together in one place. Pudding,
suet pudding. Eight hundred slabs of pudding, walling him in-a
vault of puddingstone. The thought was oppressive. He moved on
through the open doorway into the front part of the shop. In doing
so, he smoothed his hair. It was an habitual movement. After all,
there might be girls outside the glass door. Gordon was not
impressive to look at. He was just five feet seven inches high, and
because his hair was usually too long he gave the impression that
his head was a little too big for his body. He was never quite
unconscious of his small stature. When he knew that anyone was
looking at him he carried himself very upright, throwing a chest,
with a you-be-damned air which occasionally deceived simple people.
However, there was nobody outside. The front room,
unlike the rest of the shop, was smart and expensive-looking, and
it contained about two thousand books, exclusive of those in the
window. On the right there was a glass showcase in which children's
books were kept. Gordon averted his eyes from a beastly
Rackhamesque dust-jacket; elvish children tripping Wendily through
a bluebell glade. He gazed out through the glass door. A foul day,
and the wind rising. The sky was leaden, the cobbles of the street
were slimy. It was St Andrew's day, the thirtieth of November.
McKechnie's stood on a corner, on a sort of shapeless square where
four streets converged. To the left, just within sight from the
door, stood a great elm-tree, leafless now, its multitudinous twigs
making sepia-coloured lace against the sky. Opposite, next to the
Prince of Wales, were tall hoardings covered with ads for patent
foods and patent medicines. A gallery of monstrous doll-faces-pink
vacuous faces, full of goofy optimism. Q.T. Sauce, Truweet
Breakfast Crisps ('Kiddies clamour for their Breakfast Crisps'),
Kangaroo Burgundy, Vitamalt Chocolate, Bovex. Of them all, the
Bovex one oppressed Gordon the most. A spectacled rat-faced clerk,
with patent-leather hair, sitting at a cafe table grinning over a
white mug of Bovex. 'Corner Table enjoys his meal with Bovex', the
legend ran.
Gordon shortened the focus of his eyes. From the
dust-dulled pane the reflection of his own face looked back at him.
Not a good face. Not thirty yet, but moth-eaten already. Very pale,
with bitter, ineradicable lines. What people call a 'good'
forehead- high, that is-but a small pointed chin, so that the face
as a whole was pear-shaped rather than oval. Hair mouse-coloured
and unkempt, mouth unamiable, eyes hazel inclining to green. He
lengthened the focus of his eyes again. He hated mirrors nowadays.
Outside, all was bleak and wintry. A tram, like a raucous swan of
steel, glided groaning over the cobbles, and in its wake the wind
swept a debris of trampled leaves. The twigs of the elm-tree were
swirling, straining eastward. The poster that advertised Q.T. Sauce
was torn at the edge; a ribbon of paper fluttered fitfully like a
tiny pennant. In the side street too, to the right, the naked
poplars that lined the pavement bowed sharply as the wind caught
them. A nasty raw wind. There was a threatening note in it as it
swept over; the first growl of winter's anger. Two lines of a poem
struggled for birth in Gordon's mind:
Sharply the something wind-for instance,
threatening wind? No, better, menacing wind. The menacing wind
blows over-no, sweeps over, say.
The something poplars-yielding poplars? No, better,
bending poplars. Assonance between bending and menacing? No matter.
The bending poplars, newly bare. Good.
Sharply the menacing wind sweeps over The bending poplars, newly bare.
Good. 'Bare' is a sod to rhyme; however, there's always
'air', which every poet since Chaucer has been struggling to find
rhymes for. But the impulse died away in Gordon's mind. He turned
the money over in his pocket. Twopence halfpenny and a
Joey-twopence halfpenny. His mind was sticky with boredom. He
couldn't cope with rhymes and adjectives. You can't, with only
twopence halfpenny in your pocket.His eyes refocused themselves
upon the posters opposite. He had his private reasons for hating
them. Mechanically he re-read their slogans. 'Kangaroo Burgundy-the
wine for Britons.' 'Asthma was choking her!' 'Q.T. Sauce Keeps
Hubby Smiling.' 'Hike all day on a Slab of Vitamalt!' 'Curve
Cut-the Smoke for Outdoor Men.' 'Kiddies clamour for their
Breakfast Crisps.' 'Corner Table enjoys his meal with Bovex.'
Ha! A customer-potential, at any rate. Gordon
stiffened himself. Standing by the door, you could get an oblique
view out of the front window without being seen yourself. He looked
the potential customer over.
A decentish middle-aged man, black suit, bowler
hat, umbrella, and dispatch-case-provincial solicitor or Town
Clerk-peeking at the window with large pale-coloured eyes. He wore
a guilty look. Gordon followed the direction of his eyes. Ah! So
that was it! He had nosed out those D. H. Lawrence first editions
in the far corner. Pining for a bit of smut, of course. He had
heard of Lady Chatterley afar off. A bad face he had, Gordon
thought. Pale, heavy, downy, with bad contours. Welsh, by the look
of him-Nonconformist, anyway. He had the regular Dissenting pouches
round the corners of his mouth. At home, president of the local
Purity League or Seaside Vigilance Committee (rubber-soled slippers
and electric torch, spotting kissing couples along the beach
parade), and now up in town on the razzle. Gordon wished he would
come in. Sell him a copy of Women in Love. How it would disappoint
him!
But no! The Welsh solicitor had funked it. He
tucked his umbrella under his arm and moved off with righteously
turned backside. But doubtless tonight, when darkness hid his
blushes, he'd slink into one of the rubber-shops and buy High Jinks
in a Parisian Convent, by Sadie Blackeyes.
Gordon turned away from the door and back to the
book-shelves. In the shelves to your left as you came out of the
library the new and nearly-new books were kept-a patch of bright
colour that was meant to catch the eye of anyone glancing through
the glass door. Their sleek unspotted backs seemed to yearn at you
from the shelves. 'Buy me, buy me!' they seemed to be saying.
Novels fresh from the press-still unravished brides, pining for the
paperknife to deflower them-and review copies, like youthful
widows, blooming still though virgin no longer, and here and there,
in sets of half a dozen, those pathetic spinster-things,
'remainders', still guarding hopefully their long preserv'd
virginity. Gordon turned his eyes away from the 'remainders'. They
called up evil memories. The single wretched little book that he
himself had published, two years ago, had sold exactly a hundred
and fifty-three copies and then been 'remaindered'; and even as a
'remainder' it hadn't sold. He passed the new books by and paused
in front of the shelves which ran at right angles to them and which
contained more second-hand books.
Over to the right were shelves of poetry. Those in
front of him were prose, a miscellaneous lot. Upwards and downwards
they were graded, from clean and expensive at eye-level to cheap
and dingy at top and bottom. In all book-shops there goes on a
savage Darwinian struggle in which the works of living men
gravitate to eye-level and the works of dead men go up or down-down
to Gehenna or up to the throne, but always away from any position
where they will be noticed. Down in the bottom shelves the
'classics', the extinct monsters of the Victorian age, were quietly
rotting. Scott, Carlyle, Meredith, Ruskin, Pater, Stevenson-you
could hardly read the names upon their broad dowdy backs. In the
top shelves, almost out of sight, slept the pudgy biographies of
dukes. Below those, saleable still and therefore placed within
reach, was 'religious' literature-all sects and all creeds, lumped
indiscriminately together. The World Beyond, by the author of
Spirit Hands Have Touched me. Dean Farrar's Life of Christ. Jesus
the First Rotarian. Father Hilaire Chestnut's latest book of R.C.
propaganda. Religion always sells provided it is soppy enough.
Below, exactly at eye-level, was the contemporary stuff.
Priestley's latest. Dinky little books of reprinted 'middles'.
Cheer-up 'humour' from Herbert and Knox and Milne. Some highbrow
stuff as well. A novel or two by Hemingway and Virginia Woolf.
Smart pseudo-Strachey predigested biographies. Snooty, refined
books on safe painters and safe poets by those moneyed young beasts
who glide so gracefully from Eton to Cambridge and from Cambridge
to the literary reviews.
Dull-eyed, he gazed at the wall of books. He hated
the whole lot of them, old and new, highbrow and lowbrow, snooty
and chirpy. The mere sight of them brought home to him his own
sterility. For here was he, supposedly a 'writer', and he couldn't
even 'write'! It wasn't merely a question of not getting published;
it was that he produced nothing, or next to nothing. And all that
tripe cluttering the shelves-well, at any rate it existed; it was
an achievement of sorts. Even the Dells and Deepings do at least
turn out their yearly acre of print. But it was the snooty
'cultured' kind of books that he hated the worst. Books of
criticism and belles-lettres. The kind of thing that those moneyed
young beasts from Cambridge write almost in their sleep-and that
Gordon himself might have written if he had had a little more
money. Money and culture! In a country like England you can no more
be cultured without money than you can join the Cavalry Club. With
the same instinct that makes a child waggle a loose tooth, he took
out a snooty-looking volume-Some Aspects of the Italian
Baroque-opened it, read a paragraph, and shoved it back with
mingled loathing and envy. That devastating omniscience! That
noxious, horn-spectacled refinement! And the money that such
refinement means! For after all, what is there behind it, except
money? Money for the right kind of education, money for influential
friends, money for leisure and peace of mind, money for trips to
Italy. Money writes books, money sells them. Give me not
righteousness, O Lord, give me money, only money.
He jingled the coins in his pocket. He was nearly
thirty and had accomplished nothing; only his miserable book of
poems that had fallen flatter than any pancake. And ever since, for
two whole years, he had been struggling in the labyrinth of a
dreadful book that never got any further, and which, as he knew in
his moments of clarity, never would get any further. It was the
lack of money, simply the lack of money, that robbed him of the
power to 'write'. He clung to that as to an article of faith.
Money, money, all is money! Could you write even a penny novelette
without money to put heart in you? Invention, energy, wit, style,
charm-they've all got to be paid for in hard cash.
Nevertheless, as he looked along the shelves he
felt himself a little comforted. So many of the books were faded
and unreadable. After all, we're all in the same boat.
Memento mori. For you and for me and for the snooty young
men from Cambridge, the same oblivion waits-though doubtless it'll
wait rather longer for those snooty young men from Cambridge. He
looked at the time-dulled 'classics' near his feet. Dead, all dead.
Carlyle and Ruskin and Meredith and Stevenson-all are dead, God rot
them. He glanced over their faded titles. Collected Letters of
Robert Louis Stevenson. Ha, ha! That's good. Collected Letters of
Robert Louis Stevenson! Its top edge was black with dust. Dust thou
art, to dust returnest. Gordon kicked Stevenson's buckram backside.
Art there, old false-penny? You're cold meat, if ever Scotchman
was.
Ping! The shop bell. Gordon turned round. Two
customers, for the library.
A dejected, round-shouldered, lower-class woman,
looking like a draggled duck nosing among garbage, seeped in,
fumbling with a rush basket. In her wake hopped a plump little
sparrow of a woman, red-cheeked, middle-middle class, carrying
under her arm a copy of The Forsyte Saga-title outwards, so that
passers-by could spot her for a high-brow.
Gordon had taken off his sour expression. He
greeted them with the homey, family-doctor geniality reserved for
library-subscribers.
'Good afternoon, Mrs Weaver. Good afternoon, Mrs
Penn. What terrible weather!'
'Shocking!' said Mrs Penn.
He stood aside to let them pass. Mrs Weaver upset
her rush basket and spilled on to the floor a much-thumbed copy of
Ethel M. Dell's Silver Wedding. Mrs Penn's bright bird-eye lighted
upon it. Behind Mrs Weaver's back she smiled up to Gordon, archly,
as highbrow to highbrow. Dell! The lowness of it! The books these
lower classes read! Understandingly, he smiled back. They passed
into the library, highbrow to highbrow smiling.
Mrs Penn laid The Forsyte Saga on the table and
turned her sparrow-bosom upon Gordon. She was always very affable
to Gordon. She addressed him as Mister Comstock, shopwalker though
he was, and held literary conversations with him. There was the
free-masonry of highbrows between them.
'I hope you enjoyed The Forsyte Saga, Mrs Penn?'
'What a perfectly
marvellous achievement that book is, Mr Comstock! Do you
know that that makes the fourth time I've read it? An epic, a real
epic!'
Mrs Weaver nosed among the books, too dim-witted to
grasp that they were in alphabetical order.
'I don't know what to 'ave this week, that I
don't,' she mumbled through untidy lips. 'My daughter she keeps on
at me to 'ave a try at Deeping. She's great on Deeping, my daughter
is. But my son-in-law, now, 'e's more for Burroughs. I don't know,
I'm sure.'
A spasm passed over Mrs Penn's face at the mention
of Burroughs. She turned her back markedly on Mrs Weaver.
'What I feel, Mr Comstock, is that there's
something so
big about Galsworthy. He's so broad, so universal, and yet
at the same time so thoroughly English in spirit, so
human. His books are real
human documents.'
'And Priestley, too,' said Gordon. 'I think
Priestley's such an awfully fine writer, don't you?'
'Oh, he is! So big, so broad, so human! And so
essentially English!'
Mrs Weaver pursed her lips. Behind them were three
isolated yellow teeth.
'I think p'raps I can do better'n 'ave another
Dell,' she said. 'You 'ave got some more Dells, 'aven't you? I
do enjoy a good read of Dell, I must say. I says to my
daughter, I says, "You can keep your Deepings and your Burroughses.
Give me Dell," I says.'
Ding Dong Dell! Dukes and dogwhips! Mrs Penn's eye
signalled highbrow irony. Gordon returned her signal. Keep in with
Mrs Penn! A good, steady customer.
'Oh, certainly, Mrs Weaver. We've got a whole shelf
by Ethel M. Dell. Would you like The Desire of his Life? Or perhaps
you've read that. Then what about The Alter of Honour?'
'I wonder whether you have Hugh Walpole's latest
book?' said Mrs Penn. 'I feel in the mood this week for something
epic, something
big. Now Walpole, you know, I consider a really
great writer, I put him second only to Galsworthy. There's
something so
big about him. And yet he's so human with it.'
'And so essentially English,' said Gordon.
'Oh, of course! So essentially English!'
'I b'lieve I'll jest 'ave The Way of an Eagle over
again,' said Mrs Weaver finally. 'You don't never seem to get tired
of The Way of an Eagle, do you, now?'
'It's certainly astonishingly popular,' said
Gordon, diplomatically, his eye on Mrs Penn.
'Oh, as
tonishingly!' echoed Mrs Penn, ironically, her eye on
Gordon.
He took their twopences and sent them happy away,
Mrs Penn with Walpole's Rogue Herries and Mrs Weaver with The Way
of an Eagle.
Soon he had wandered back to the other room and
towards the shelves of poetry. A melancholy fascination, those
shelves had for him. His own wretched book was there-skied, of
course, high up among the unsaleable.
Mice, by Gordon Comstock; a sneaky little foolscap octavo,
price three and sixpence but now reduced to a bob. Of the thirteen
B.F.s who had reviewed it (and The Times Lit. Supp. had declared
that it showed 'exceptional promise') not one had seen the none too
subtle joke of that title. And in the two years he had been at
McKechnie's bookshop, not a single customer, not a single one, had
ever taken Mice out of its shelf.
There were fifteen or twenty shelves of poetry.
Gordon regarded them sourly. Dud stuff, for the most part. A little
above eye-level, already on their way to heaven and oblivion, were
the poets of yesteryear, the stars of his earlier youth. Yeats,
Davies, Housman, Thomas, De la Mare, Hardy. Dead stars. Below them,
exactly at eye-level, were the squibs of the passing minute. Eliot,
Pound, Auden, Campbell, Day Lewis, Spender. Very damp squibs, that
lot. Dead stars above, damp squibs below. Shall we ever again get a
writer worth reading? But Lawrence was all right, and Joyce even
better before he went off his coconut. And if we did get a writer
worth reading, should we know him when we saw him, so choked as we
are with trash?
Ping! Shop bell. Gordon turned. Another customer.
A youth of twenty, cherry-lipped, with gilded hair,
tripped Nancifully in. Moneyed, obviously. He had the golden aura
of money. He had been in the shop before. Gordon assumed the
gentlemanly-servile mien reserved for new customers. He repeated
the usual formula:
'Good afternoon. Can I do anything for you? Are you
looking for any particular book?'
'Oh, no, not weally.' An R-less Nancy voice. 'May I
just
bwowse? I simply couldn't wesist your fwont window. I have
such a tewwible weakness for bookshops! So I just floated
in-tee-hee!'
Float out again, then, Nancy. Gordon smiled a
cultured smile, as booklover to booklover.
'Oh, please do. We like people to look round. Are
you interested in poetry, by any chance?'
'Oh, of course! I
adore poetwy!'
Of course! Mangy little snob. There was a
sub-artistic look about his clothes. Gordon slid a 'slim' red
volume from the poetry shelves.
'These are just out. They might interest you,
perhaps. They're translations-something rather out of the common.
Translations from the Bulgarian.'
Very subtle, that. Now leave him to himself. That's
the proper way with customers. Don't hustle them; let them browse
for twenty minutes or so; then they get ashamed and buy something.
Gordon moved to the door, discreetly, keeping out of Nancy's way;
yet casually, one hand in his pocket, with the insouciant air
proper to a gentleman.
Outside, the slimy street looked grey and drear.
From somewhere round the corner came the clatter of hooves, a cold
hollow sound. Caught by the wind, the dark columns of smoke from
the chimneys veered over and rolled flatly down the sloping roofs.
Ah!
Sharply the menacing wind sweeps over The bending poplars, newly bare, And the dark ribbons of the chimneys Veer downward tumty tumty (something like
'murky') air.
Good. But the impulse faded. His eye fell again
upon the ad- posters across the street.
He almost wanted to laugh at them, they were so
feeble, so dead-alive, so unappetizing. As though anybody could be
tempted by
those! Like succubi with pimply backsides. But they
depressed him all the same. The money-stink, everywhere the
money-stink. He stole a glance at the Nancy, who had drifted away
from the poetry shelves and taken out a large expensive book on the
Russian ballet. He was holding it delicately between his pink
non-prehensile paws, as a squirrel holds a nut, studying the
photographs. Gordon knew his type. The moneyed 'artistic' young
man. Not an artist himself, exactly, but a hanger-on of the arts;
frequenter of studios, retailer of scandal. A nice-looking boy,
though, for all his Nancitude. The skin at the back of his neck was
as silky-smooth as the inside of a shell. You can't have a skin
like that under five hundred a year. A sort of charm he had, a
glamour, like all moneyed people. Money and charm; who shall
separate them?
Gordon thought of Ravelston, his charming, rich
friend, editor of Antichrist, of whom he was extravagantly fond,
and whom he did not see so often as once in a fortnight; and of
Rosemary, his girl, who loved him-adored him, so she said-and who,
all the same, had never slept with him. Money, once again; all is
money. All human relationships must be purchased with money. If you
have no money, men won't care for you, women won't love you; won't,
that is, care for you or love you the last little bit that matters.
And how right they are, after all! For, moneyless, you are
unlovable. Though I speak with the tongues of men and of angels.
But then, if I haven't money, I
don't speak with the tongues of men and of angels.
He looked again at the ad-posters. He really hated
them this time. That Vitamalt one, for instance! 'Hike all day on a
slab of Vitamalt!' A youthful couple, boy and girl, in clean-minded
hiking kit, their hair picturesquely tousled by the wind, climbing
a stile against a Sussex landscape. That girl's face! The awful
bright tomboy cheeriness of it! The kind of girl who goes in for
Plenty of Clean Fun. Windswept. Tight khaki shorts but that doesn't
mean you can pinch her backside. And next to them-Corner Table.
'Corner Table enjoys his meal with Bovex'. Gordon examined the
thing with the intimacy of hatred. The idiotic grinning face, like
the face of a self-satisfied rat, the slick black hair, the silly
spectacles. Corner Table, heir of the ages; victor of Waterloo,
Corner Table, Modern man as his master want him to be. A docile
little porker, sitting in the money-sty, drinking Bovex.
Faces passed, wind-yellowed. A tram boomed across
the square, and the clock over the Prince of Wales struck three. A
couple of old creatures, a tramp or a beggar and his wife, in long
greasy overcoats that reached almost to the ground, were shuffling
towards the shop. Book-pinchers, by the look of them. Better keep
an eye on the boxes outside. The old man halted on the kerb a few
yards away while his wife came to the door. She pushed it open and
looked up at Gordon, between grey strings of hair, with a sort of
hopeful malevolence.
'Ju buy books?' she demanded hoarsely.
'Sometimes. It depends what books they are.'
'I gossome
lovely books 'ere.'
She came in, shutting the door with a clang. The
Nancy glanced over his shoulder distastefully and moved a step or
two away, into the corner. The old woman had produced a greasy
little sack from under her overcoat. She moved confidentially
nearer to Gordon. She smelt of very, very old breadcrusts.
'Will you 'ave 'em?' she said, clasping the neck of
the sack. 'Only 'alf a crown the lot.'
'What are they? Let me see them, please.'
'
Lovely books, they are,' she breathed, bending over to
open the sack and emitting a sudden very powerful whiff of
breadcrusts.
''Ere!' she said, and thrust an armful of
filthy-looking books almost into Gordon's face.
They were an 1884 edition of Charlotte M. Yonge's
novels, and had the appearance of having been slept on for many
years. Gordon stepped back, suddenly revolted.
'We can't possibly buy those,' he said shortly.
'Can't buy 'em?
Why can't yer buy 'em?'
'Because they're no use to us. We can't sell that
kind of thing.'
'Wotcher make me take 'em out o' me bag for, then?'
demanded the old woman ferociously.
Gordon made a detour round her, to avoid the smell,
and held the door open, silently. No use arguing. You had people of
this type coming into the shop all day long. The old woman made
off, mumbling, with malevolence in the hump of her shoulders, and
joined her husband. He paused on the kerb to cough, so fruitily
that you could hear him through the door. A clot of phlegm, like a
little white tongue, came slowly out between his lips and was
ejected into the gutter. Then the two old creatures shuffled away,
beetle-like in the long greasy overcoats that hid everything except
their feet.
Gordon watched them go. They were just by-products.
The throw-outs of the money-god. All over London, by tens of
thousands, draggled old beasts of that description; creeping like
unclean beetles to the grave.
He gazed out at the graceless street. At this
moment it seemed to him that in a street like this, in a town like
this, every life that is lived must be meaningless and intolerable.
The sense of disintegration, of decay, that is endemic in our time,
was strong upon him. Somehow it was mixed up with the ad-posters
opposite. He looked now with more seeing eyes at those grinning
yard-wide faces. After all, there was more there than mere
silliness, greed, and vulgarity. Corner Table grins at you,
seemingly optimistic, with a flash of false teeth. But what is
behind the grin? Desolation, emptiness, prophecies of doom. For can
you not see, if you know how to look, that behind that slick
self-satisfaction, that tittering fat-bellied triviality, there is
nothing but a frightful emptiness, a secret despair? The great
death-wish of the modern world. Suicide pacts. Heads stuck in
gas-ovens in lonely maisonettes. French letters and Amen Pills. And
the reverberations of future wars. Enemy aeroplanes flying over
London; the deep threatening hum of the propellers, the shattering
thunder of the bombs. It is all written in Corner Table's face.
More customers coming. Gordon stood back,
gentlemanly-servile.
The door-bell clanged. Two upper-middle-class
ladies sailed noisily in. One pink and fruity, thirty-fivish, with
voluptuous bosom burgeoning from her coat of squirrel-skin,
emitting a super-feminine scent of Parma violets: the other
middle-aged, tough, and curried-India, presumably. Close behind
them a dark, grubby, shy young man slipped through the doorway as
apologetically as a cat. He was one of the shop's best customers-a
flitting, solitary creature who was almost too shy to speak and who
by some strange manipulation kept himself always a day away from a
shave.
Gordon repeated his formula:
'Good afternoon. Can I do anything for you? Are you
looking for any particular book?'
Fruity-face overwhelmed him with a smile, but
curry-face decided to treat the question as an impertinence.
Ignoring Gordon, she drew fruity-face across to the shelves next to
the new books where the dog-books and cat-books were kept. The two
of them immediately began taking books out of the shelves and
talking loudly. Curry-face had the voice of a drill-sergeant. She
was no doubt a colonel's wife, or widow. The Nancy, still deep in
the big book on the Russian ballet, edged delicately away. His face
said that he would leave the shop if his privacy were disturbed
again. The shy young man had already found his way to the poetry
shelves. The two ladies were fairly frequent visitors to the shop.
They always wanted to see books about cats and dogs, but never
actually bought anything. There were two whole shelves of dog-books
and cat-books. 'Ladies' Corner,' old McKechnie called it.
Another customer arrived, for the library. an ugly
girl of twenty, hatless, in a white overall, with a sallow,
blithering, honest face and powerful spectacles that distorted her
eyes. she was an assistant at a chemist's shop. gordon put on his
homey library manner. she smiled at him, and with a gait as clumsy
as a bear's followed him into the library.
'What kind of book would you like this time, Miss
Weeks?'
'Well'-she clutched the front of her overall. Her
distorted, black-treacle eyes beamed trustfully into his. 'Well,
what I'd
really like's a good hot-stuff love story. You
know-something
modern.'
'Something modern? Something by Barbara Bedworthy
for instance? Have you read
Almost a Virgin?'
'Oh no, not her. She's too Deep. I can't bear Deep
books. But I want something-well,
you know-
modern. Sex-problems and divorce and all that.
You know.'
'Modern, but not Deep,' said Gordon, as lowbrow to
lowbrow.
He ranged among the hot-stuff modern love-stories.
There were not less than three hundred of them in the library. From
the front room came the voices of the two upper-middle-class
ladies, the one fruity, the other curried, disputing about dogs.
They had taken out one of the dog-books and were examining the
photographs. Fruity-voice enthused over the photograph of a Peke,
the ickle angel pet, wiv his gweat big Soulful eyes and his ickle
black nosie-oh, so ducky-duck! But curry-voice-yes, undoubtedly a
colonel's widow-said Pekes were soppy. Give her dogs with guts-dogs
that would fight, she said; she hated these soppy lapdogs, she
said. 'You have no Soul, Bedelia, no Soul,' said fruity-voice
plaintively. The door-bell pinged again. Gordon handed the
chemist's girl
Seven Scarlet Nights and booked it on her ticket. She took
a shabby leather purse out of her overall pocket and paid him
twopence.
He went back to the front room. The Nancy had put
his book back in the wrong shelf and vanished. A lean,
straight-nosed, brisk woman, with sensible clothes and gold-rimmed
pince-nez-schoolmarm possibly, feminist certainly-came in and
demanded Mrs Wharton-Beverley's history of the suffrage movement.
With secret joy Gordon told her that they hadn't got it. She
stabbed his male incompetence with gimlet eyes and went out again.
The thin young man stood apologetically in the corner, his face
buried in D. H. Lawrence's Collected Poems, like some long-legged
bird with its head buried under its wing.
Gordon waited by the door. Outside, a
shabby-genteel old man with a strawberry nose and a khaki muffler
round his throat was picking over the books in the sixpenny box.
The two upper-middle-class ladies suddenly departed, leaving a
litter of open books on the table. Fruity-face cast reluctant
backward glances at the dog-books, but curry-face drew her away,
resolute not to buy anything. Gordon held the door open. The two
ladies sailed noisily out, ignoring him.
He watched their fur-coated upper-middle-class
backs go down the street. The old strawberry-nosed man was talking
to himself as he pawed over the books. A bit wrong in the head,
presumably. He would pinch something if he wasn't watched. The wind
blew colder, drying the slime of the street. Time to light up
presently. Caught by a swirl of air, the torn strip of paper on the
Q.T. Sauce advertisement fluttered sharply, like a piece of washing
on the line. Ah!
Sharply the menacing wind sweeps over The bending poplars, newly bare, And the dark ribbons of the chimneys Veer downward; flicked by whips of air Torn posters flutter.
Not bad, not bad at all. But he had no wish to go
on-could not go on, indeed. He fingered the money in his pocket,
not chinking it, lest the shy young man should hear.
Twopence-halfpenny. No tobacco all tomorrow. His bones ached.
A light sprang up in the Prince of Wales. They
would be swabbing out the bar. The old strawberry-nosed man was
reading an Edgar Wallace out of the twopenny box. A tram boomed in
the distance. In the room upstairs Mr McKechnie, who seldom came
down to the shop, drowsed by the gas-fire, white-haired and
white-bearded, with snuff-box handy, over his calf-bound folio of
Middleton's
Travels in the Levant.
The thin young man suddenly realized that he was
alone and looked up guiltily. He was a habitue of bookshops, yet
never stayed longer than ten minutes in any one shop. A passionate
hunger for books, and the fear of being a nuisance, were constantly
at war in him. After ten minutes in any shop he would grow uneasy,
feel himself de trop, and take to flight, having bought something
out of sheer nervousness. Without speaking he held out the copy of
Lawrence's poems and awkwardly extracted three florins from his
pocket. In handing them to Gordon he dropped one. Both dived for it
simultaneously; their heads bumped against one another. The young
man stood back, blushing sallowly.
'I'll wrap it up for you,' said Gordon.
But the shy young man shook his head-he stammered
so badly that he never spoke when it was avoidable. He clutched his
book to him and slipped out with the air of having committed some
disgraceful action.
Gordon was alone. He wandered back to the door. The
strawberry- nosed man glanced over his shoulder, caught Gordon's
eye, and moved off, foiled. He had been on the point of slipping
Edgar Wallace into his pocket. The clock over the Prince of Wales
struck a quarter past three.
Ding Dong! A quarter past three. Light up at half
past. Four and three-quarter hours till closing time. Five and a
quarter hours till supper. Twopence halfpenny in pocket. No tobacco
tomorrow.
Suddenly a ravishing, irresistible desire to smoke
came over Gordon. He had made up his mind not to smoke this
afternoon. He had only four cigarettes left. They must be saved for
tonight, when he intended to 'write'; for he could no more 'write'
without tobacco than without air. Nevertheless, he had got to have
a smoke. He took out his packet of Player's Weights and extracted
one of the dwarfish cigarettes. It was sheer stupid indulgence; it
meant half an hour off tonight's 'writing' time. But there was no
resisting it. With a sort of shameful joy he sucked the soothing
smoke into his lungs.
The reflection of his own face looked back at him
from the greyish pane. Gordon Comstock, author of
Mice; en l'an trentiesme de son eage, and moth-eaten
already. Only twenty-six teeth left. However, Villon at the same
age was poxed on his own showing. Let's be thankful for small
mercies.
He watched the ribbon of torn paper whirling,
fluttering on the Q.T. Sauce advertisement. Our civilization is
dying. It
must be dying. But it isn't going to die in its bed.
Presently the aeroplanes are coming. Zoom-whizz-crash! The whole
western world going up in a roar of high explosives.
He looked at the darkening street, at the greyish
reflection of his face in the pane, at the shabby figures shuffling
past. Almost involuntarily he repeated:
'C'est l'Ennui-l'oeil charge d'un pleur
involontaire, Il reve d'echafauds en fumant son houka!'
Money, money! Corner Table! The humming of the
aeroplanes and the crash of the bombs.
Gordon squinted up at the leaden sky. Those
aeroplanes are coming. In imagination he saw them coming now;
squadron after squadron, innumerable, darkening the sky like clouds
of gnats. With his tongue not quite against his teeth he made a
buzzing, bluebottle-on-the-window-pane sound to represent the
humming of the aeroplanes. It was a sound which, at that moment, he
ardently desired to hear.